And so I completed week four in the trenches yesterday, or tomorrow. My shins have moved from screaming, sulking, wincing and keeping quiet. But they are alright. I have targeted them with strength exercises and they are alright. I tore my iliopsoas muscle at some point and its the only thing bothering me now. If you don't know what the iliopsoas muscle is, you are very lucky. At any rate, I am working on stretching it. I have tried massaging in through the side of my tummy without success. But I intend to run through it and I hope it gets better with time.
And I found a way. So I do hills on Saturday and Speed on Thursday and I think its all settling in.
It gets very tough at times like On wednesday this week I was attempting an 18K in sub 4:30 after doing an 18K in 4:32 pace on Monday and the Wednesday workout went well until 9K then I started struggling. By the time I reached 18K I was a shell. When you feel like a shell, every step you take, you think your leg will collapse and your body will crash on the ground and your hands are so tired they cant keep your head from slamming on the pavement, you feel like the next wind that blows can blow you away. You feel you have nothing left. You are not even 100% sure that you exist. In fact, you are at a loss as to how to find yourself again and how to be a somebody again. And you are so hungry but you are not sure your hands can manage to take a morsel through the long journey from the plate to your mouth, whose location you are not 100% sure of.
Have you ever felt like a shell?
Well, if you haven't, you are very lucky. Stick to whatever it is you are doing and thank God for the mercy he has on you.
I have lost 5Kgs this month alone.
I am a bit surprised that it has been easier than I expected but what I needed was knowledge, assertiveness, discipline and zero-tolerance to the demons that surrounded me.
One major demon that I killed this week was groundnuts/peanuts. They are a no no for me. In fact, they are a major contributor to my failure to lose weight in the past. Imagine 35grams of peanuts=200 calories and yet 1,333grams of tomatoes or cabbages will give you 200 calories.
I have started taking one spoonful of sugar in my tea but before I eat anything, I mentally note how many calories it contains and also commit myself to losing it at some point. Running for 15minutes burns about 200calories for me, so I do the math every-time I eat.
One thing that has encouraged me, especially in days like yesterday, when I was feeling tired, torn and spent, is the following:
Colleague 1: I hear you have a running club.
Me: No. (I begin to walk away. She is looking around desperately for support and some colleagues start laughing so I look back and she is looking at one fellow who is looking at his keyboard and trying his best to avoid my eye contact)
Fellow: Don't look at me. Dont ask me anything.
Colleague 1: But he told me you have a running club...
I walk back like I have just been insulted.
Me: There is no running club.
I look pointedly at her. The fellow is now staring at us and I am eyeballing her looking for signs of a runner in her. I dont see any. She has this awkward walking style that makes me doubt whether she has a core that can be called strong, or whether she can even run three kilometers.
Fellow one decides to be helpful and help her out of the awkward situation.
Fellow one: Its a men only running club.
Colleague 1: Is it a mens only running club?
Me: Yeah, but I wouldn't call it a club.
Colleague 1: (Excited) Can I join you?
Me: We dont exist, so you cant join us.
Colleague 1: But am told you meet and run...
Me: Yes, we meet for races. We dont meet to train.
Colleague 1: That's ok. When is your next meeting?
Me: 7th July
Colleague 1: Where?
Colleague 1: How far are you running?
Colleague 1: Thats ok. I can hack it.
Me: How far have you run?
Colleague 1: Uh...I...
Me: What is the farthest you have ever run?
Colleague 1: 26k
Me: How long did it take you?
Colleague 1: three hours
Colleague 1: Karura forest
Colleague 1: Why am I being interrogated?
Colleague 1: Three months ago
Me: I don't believe you.
Anyway, let me not bore you with the details. She later said she runs on Mbagathi way but would like to join a runners club because it would make her more disciplined. We will see. Our conversation was inconclusive.
Another was a bunch of three ladies. Two overweight, one average. They were desperate to lose weight. They wanted to join our running club and they were told I am the chairman. I told them there is no running club and gave them diet tips. I also told them running is so hard and that they are better off focusing on diet because diet is way easier and more effective than running. I told them I am tired of hearing people who want to start running and I will wait to be told by people, not by themselves, that they are running. They even showed me new unpackaged running shoes they had just bought from Nairobi Sports house. I told them that if they are not just talking, we will see.
They took notes as I spoke. Hang onto every word.
So maybe I should start a running club. They all said they are willing to pay to join. They thought that because nobody pays, nobody is committed. Hmmmm......
Keep running fellows!